March 25, 2019 at 04:00AM by CWC
The other day, I was talking to my mom, and she mentioned that she’d found a box of my old journals from college. I knew exactly what was in them: page after cringe-y page of whining and complaining and pining over my on-again, off-again boyfriend of four years. So I asked her to burn them and throw the ashes in her cat’s litter box, because closure. (Not bitter, swear!)
I haven’t been big on journaling about my love life since my dorm-room days, mainly because it never ended up being very productive back then. (Clearly, my emo musings didn’t help that doomed relationship.) But it turns out I may have just been approaching the journaling thing from the wrong angle.
According to Laura Rubin, who hosts creative journaling workshops and retreats as the founder of notebook brand Allswell Creative, writing down your feelings is a powerful tool for relationships because by doing it, you get to know the number-one most important person in your life: yourself. “The quality of any romantic relationship is going to be directly correlated to your own self-worth,” she says. “You are the person you really need to get to know, and journaling is a great ally in that process.”
“The quality of any romantic relationship is going to be directly correlated to your own self-worth. You are the person you really need to get to know, and journaling is a great ally in that process.” —Laura Rubin, founder of Allswell Creative
She adds that writing can help you tune in to your inner voice and appreciate who you are—in other words, your journal shouldn’t just be a dumping ground for frustrations about your partner. (Although that can definitely be helpful in some situations.) Rather, look at it as a place to dig deep into who you are and what you want.
Intrigued, I asked Rubin to provide a few journal prompts that can help take a person’s relationships to the next level, whether single or attached. Mom, if you’re reading this, please spare my gel-ink pens from the fire—looks like I’m gonna need them.
Journal prompts for single people
The perfect day visualization: A big roadblock people come up against when dating is that they don’t really know what they want, says Rubin. And if you’re not clear on your endgame, she adds, you risk wasting time and energy on people who ultimately aren’t going to be the best fit for you.
To find that clarity, Rubin recommends a two-part journaling exercise. “First, take a little time to dream about what [your ideal] partnership looks like and feels like,” she says. These prompts can help get you started, but feel free to be creative here:
- Journal out a whole day spent with this person. What does it feel like when you wake up together? Where do you go? What do you do? Really dig in and get specific.
- Keep coming back to how it feels physically and emotionally. Are you energized? Does it give you a sense of safety? Are you having fun?
Next, she says, use the intel gleaned from your perfect-day visualization to make a list of qualities you want to prioritize in a partner. “I’m not just talking about a set of broad shoulders here,” she says. “What are the nonnegotiables for you?”
The post-date debrief: One of the ickier aspects of dating-app culture is that it can make a person feel like they’re on a job interview, and it’s easy to put too much focus on the performance aspect. We’ve all fallen down the rabbit hole of self-doubt. (Were my jokes funny enough? Did she notice the huge zit on my chin? Is he going to ask me out again?) But Rubin says this is the absolute wrong approach. “We’re often so preoccupied with being chosen that it’s easy to forget that you are picking your partner, as well,” she says.
You can use your journal to flip the script. “Don’t just get caught up in the ‘shiny object’ aspects of their persona or appearance,” says Rubin. “Ask yourself about the qualities they exhibited and if those are in alignment with what’s most important to you.” Here are some things she suggests you journal about after a date:
- How did your evening make you feel?
- What did you enjoy about spending time with this person (or not)?
- Did they make you feel good or kick up insecurities?
It’s not about judging your date, she says. “It’s about being connected with yourself through the dating process and assessing whether you two humans are a good fit for one another.” You might be surprised to realize that person you were hoping to impress isn’t actually that impressive themselves—in which case, thank u, next.
Journal prompts if you’re in a relationship
The stress-buster: Stress is a major relationship buzzkill—if you’re obsessing over your to-do list or a conflict with someone at work, it’s hard to be present with your partner. Compounding this, says Rubin, is the fact that self-care can often take a backseat when you’re coupled up. “It erodes the foundation of the relationship long-term, because you both need to be taking care of yourselves in order to have the energy and clarity to take care of each other,” she points out.
Here’s how Rubin uses her journal to calm her mind and clear mental space for her S.O.
- At night in bed, jot down a list of everything you want to get out of your head. Rubin says this helps her sleep better—and she wakes up knowing exactly what priorities she needs to tackle the next day. (That way, she’s not thinking about them during quality time with her bedmate.)
- In the morning, do a free-write for at least four minutes and see what comes up on the page. Think of it like a juice cleanse for your brain.
The self-love party: Let’s be honest: One of the perks of being in a relationship is having someone constantly tell you how great they think you are. (Just me?) But if you’re solely looking to your partner to validate you, you’re likely heading down a sketchy path. “We aren’t going to get all our needs met by a significant other. That’s unreasonable and unrealistic,” Rubin says.
If you find that your moods peak and dip based on the amount of attention you’re getting from your plus-one, Rubin suggests giving yourself the gratuitous praise you’re seeking. “Make a list of the things that you appreciate about yourself, and I don’t mean a short list,” she says. “Go for at least 50: traits, body parts, habits, you name it. Like how you set the dining room table? Include it. Think you have lovely feet, claim it. Love how you are a good friend to x person? Celebrate it.” It’ll take the pressure off your partner to be the president of your fan club—but, more importantly, it can help you fall a little deeper in love with you.