Diary of Daisy: My Journey to Motherhood (14th – 20th October)

Monday, 14th October

Today felt like the start of a new chapter. 🌱 I woke up with a sense of calm that I haven’t felt in a while. I’ve been working so hard on staying positive, and it’s slowly paying off. My husband and I had a long chat over breakfast about our next steps, and we’re feeling more in sync with each other. We’ve decided to continue focusing on our health and taking things one step at a time.

At work, I found myself more focused and productive than usual. Maybe it’s because I’ve been trying to keep a clear headspace, but I felt a lot less anxious today. I also started reading more about different fertility treatments, just out of curiosity. While it’s overwhelming, I reminded myself that it’s okay to take things slowly. After work, I spent some time journaling about how I’ve been feeling, and it was nice to put my thoughts on paper. 🌼

Tuesday, 15th October

Today was one of those days where my emotions were all over the place. 😔 I started the morning feeling a bit down, thinking about how long we’ve been on this journey. The hardest part is not knowing when things will fall into place. I try to stay hopeful, but some days it’s hard to shake off the disappointment.

I decided to take a long walk after work to clear my head. Nature always helps me feel grounded, and being outside in the crisp autumn air did me good. 🍂 I even came across a bench where I sat for a while, just thinking. I reminded myself that it’s okay to feel low sometimes, and that these emotions are part of the process. I ended the day with a warm bath and a good book. Tomorrow will be better. 🌸

Wednesday, 16th October

After yesterday’s rollercoaster of emotions, I woke up feeling a little lighter today. 🌤️ I had a meeting at work with a colleague who’s been through a similar journey, and we ended up chatting about it for a bit. It felt comforting to talk to someone who truly understands the ups and downs. She reminded me that every journey is unique, and it’s important to take care of myself along the way.

In the evening, my husband and I went out for dinner, which was a nice change of pace. 🍽️ We didn’t talk much about our plans, and instead focused on enjoying the moment. It felt refreshing to step away from the constant thoughts of trying to conceive, even if just for a little while. I’m learning to appreciate these little pockets of joy when they come.

Thursday, 17th October

Today was one of those rare days where everything seemed to go smoothly. ☀️ I woke up feeling more rested and energized than I have in weeks. I decided to start my day with a yoga session, and it set the tone for the rest of the day. Work was busy but productive, and I found myself feeling more optimistic than usual.

In the evening, I took some time to do a bit of research on mindfulness and fertility. I’m learning that managing stress is so important on this journey, and I want to make sure I’m taking care of my mental health as much as my physical health. 🧘‍♀️ I also made plans to meet up with a friend over the weekend. It’s been a while since I’ve had a good catch-up, and I’m looking forward to it.

Friday, 18th October

The end of the week always feels like a small victory. 🌿 I had a meeting at work this morning that went really well, which put me in a good mood. My colleague shared some exciting news about her pregnancy, and while I felt happy for her, I also felt a little pang of sadness. It’s always tough when you’re reminded of what you’re working toward but haven’t yet achieved.

In the evening, my husband and I decided to cook dinner together. 🍲 We made a new recipe, and it was fun to try something different. Cooking has always been a way for us to unwind and connect. We talked about our weekend plans and decided to take a little day trip on Saturday to clear our minds and enjoy some time together.

Saturday, 19th October

We spent the day exploring a nearby town, and it was exactly what I needed. 🌳 The weather was perfect, and the change of scenery helped me reset. We wandered through small shops, had lunch at a cozy café, and just enjoyed each other’s company. It was one of those days where everything felt easy and carefree.

As we drove back home, I couldn’t help but reflect on how grateful I am for these moments of peace. Sometimes, stepping away from the daily grind and focusing on the present moment is all it takes to feel recharged. By the time we got home, I felt more at ease with the journey we’re on. I know it’s not going to be easy, but I’m learning to embrace the process. 🌼

Sunday, 20th October

Today was a quiet day of reflection. I spent the morning journaling again, something I’ve found really therapeutic lately. 📝 It’s been helpful to write down my thoughts and feelings, and it gives me a sense of clarity. I also spent some time organizing our plans for the upcoming weeks. We’re going to start exploring more fertility options, but we’ve decided to take it one step at a time.

In the afternoon, I took another walk, this time through our neighborhood. The trees are starting to change color, and it reminded me that change is a natural part of life. 🍁 I’m trying to be patient with myself and with this process. As the week comes to a close, I feel a sense of calm. I don’t have all the answers yet, but I’m learning to trust the timing of my life. For now, I’m choosing to stay hopeful. 🌈